I’ve gotten a lot of new readers recently & most of you have found me through the craft world, but that’s not actually how this blog got started. I started it as a sounding board shortly after Sam was born & I found myself overwhelmed by the world of new motherhood. What started off as “the mommy blues” eventually got worse & worse until I finally saw a psychiatrist around 6 months ago. He diagnosed me with postpartum depression & I made the best decision for myself and my family at the time which was to treat it with therapy & an anti-depressant. (Zoloft) (A decision I have zero regrets about btw)
I knew from the moment I started taking medication that it wasn’t something I wanted to take long-term, just to help me until my hormones could stabilize & I could get life back on track. Assuming it was ever on track to begin with. (:
My doctor & I have been talking lately about going off the meds now that things are great (& life is as under control as possible with a Samster in the house) he agreed it would be fine to try & said to let him know when I was ready and we’d wean me off gradually. Yesterday though I completely forgot to take my pill, I realized that this morning & somehow reasoned, well, if I’ve already skipped a dose one day why go back & then gradually go off again? I unknowingly got one day done, right? So I didn’t take one today either. I basically stopped cold turkey. Not the plan at all & I’m sure not the best idea but in the midst of running around with a screaming toddler, feeding meals & the rest of the chaos of a normal day it seemed like a good decision.
Now I’m starting to feel the ramifications though, about 2 hrs ago I started feeling kind of crappy and now I feel like I’m getting the flu. Feverish, achy, tired, the whole 9. From everything I’ve read online these are the typical withdrawl symptoms from stopping Zoloft. Now I know, I know, I should’ve talked to my doctor first but why do things the right way when you can do them the hard way?
No turning back now, at this point it really wouldn’t make sense to take the meds again & I was going to have to go through this at some point so why not now? It’s 40 degrees and raining, perfect sick weather and at least it’s Friday so I’ll have help with Sam.
I’d love to hear from anyone else who’s gone off of anti-depressants, did you have withdrawls? Did it last long? And my biggest fear, did the postpartum depression come back?
Thanks for listening. It always makes me feel better to vent to you guys.